|—||Jean-Baptiste Alphonse Karr, French critic|
I have a lot of respect for this woman, but I have to wonder if perhaps she will have a heart attack by the time she is 50 years old due to the constant pressure, stress and work she puts on herself. It is sad to see that this is what is becoming “the norm” among successful women in the workplace.
I recently watched a documentary called Happy (available on Netflix) and it was so interesting to see different geographical areas and their view on work and their view on what it takes to be happy. In Japan, people are literally working themselves to death and they even have a specific work for their killer work ethic, karoshi. This is horrifying.
Today I am going to remember to take a minute to slow down and enjoy life. I hope you do too.
And no one can deny it
Are sunshine, water, rest, and air
Exercise and diet.
These six will gladly you attend
If only you are willing
Your mind they’ll ease
Your will they’ll mend
And charge you not a shilling.
|—||Nursery rhyme quoted by Wayne Fields, What the River Knows, 1990|
I have lived in Upstate New York my entire life. I have traveled to the Southern most point in the US in Key West, FL and as far West as Colorado. Believe it or not, I have never been to New York City.
I’ve been saying I am going to go to New York for many years now. I know I will love it. I love the hustle and bustle of a big city and there will be so much delicious vegan food to eat.
My mother has never been to New York City either. She lived in Upstate New York for many years, but has lived in Florida for the last 17 years.
I have had a strained relationship with my mother for my entire life, but for the last few years I really feel like I have been giving her the chance to get to know me and be a part of my life. In the last five years, we have often talked about how we really want to go to NYC and how cool it would be to go together since neither of us have ever been.
My mother has only made it up to NY two or three times since she moved away all those years ago. When she is here, she is staying with family in Rochester and it’s always a big family visit and never any one-on-one time for her to actually spend with me. To be honest, I like it this way and feel that is probably better off.
But…for some reason I have always had hopes that if we did this NYC trip, that we would have a great time. It was all wishful thinking.
The current year is 2012. I’m pretty sure my mom has only spoken to me on the phone twice this year and sends me a random text about once every three months. I know she’s alive because she takes her turns on Words With Friends. Sad, but true. She doesn’t want to know me. She’s never going to change.
I’m going to New York City without her in September. I’m moving on. I’m done hoping someday she will want to be a part of my life. I’m done trying to understand her or why she does the things she does. I’m done trying to hold on to a relationship that doesn’t exist.